Being able to sleep more than 5 hours straight, has become a luxury for me. For the past month or so, I haven't had much of a good night's sleep. First it was exams. Then it was assignments. And soon, it will be back to exams again. How CAN I sleep?!
It has become worse lately. There were a few nights where I did not even really sleep. I would take a 30-45 mins of nap to refresh myself and get back to work until the next day and head to class or uni for a group meeting. Of course, I do not deny that I procastinate every now and then. Who doesn't? If I did not take these little breaks, I would be dead already.
I really envy Kooky's life. Always lazing around, having nothing to do. Always sleeping on MY bed, snoring away. Yes, that fatso sleeps in the cutest positions, even on his back, and snores away just like a human. More about the cats next time.
Anyway, I've got only one assignment left for now, and then it will be the revision period. I already look like shit these days, can't imagine how it would be when exams are finally over.
A fatique-looking me. And that was 10 days ago.Been trying to sneak out for a short meal break or so to hang out with Victor. He's only here for slightly over a week and if I don't do so, we'll never be able to catch up! Ah, have a slight itch to go clubbing tonight before the whole exam period thing starts. But I need good company. Scratch that. I do have good company, just not the right company. Or rather, certain people , that I wished I could still club with, like before.
I miss those times, I really do. Sigh. Even more, I miss the special ones who used to care for me more than anything in the world, but doesn't anymore. It's kind of a painful fact to know. That they do not care as much as they once did, and that they're no longer yours. Worse still, when you lose them, it all comes in a package. You lose other stuff that came along with it too. It'll just be time before you totally stop being friends. And become strangers.
Yeah, I know that it's just wrong to keep living in the past. I know I have been doing that lately. I know it. So spare me the lecture please. But easier said than done, hun. I've told myself tonnes and tonnes of time. To let go. And to move on.
Not sure why I can't deal with new changes these days. Maybe it's not exactly what I see as a positive change. Or it's just not what I'm ready for. Seems like everything is moving forward so quickly. Or should I say, zooming past me. I'll try to keep up. But god, just make it a little easier for me? Give me some sign. Any would do.
Okay, wrong direction. Turning into some sort of emo post already. But I AM better these days, I reckon. At least, I would like to believe that I am.
On a slightly brighter but totally unrelated note, I've been talking to a group mate for the past two days regarding assignment and other stuff. He's funny, really. And it's adorable how he calls me sunshine or princess. Maybe he's afraid he will call me wrongly hehe. Ah, and he's one who would encourage me to wear more dresses. Also accused that I dressed up just for a presentation.:/
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