Awaken.

Today, I officially declare that my heart is done. Being broken.

It's just been too many times. There's nothing left to be broken. It's just too much for me to take anymore. I'm just done.

I've been in denial for far too long. I should have let go long ago, instead of secretly clinging onto that hope inside.

Doesn't matter whose fault it was. Doesn't matter who gave up first.

I just want to get rid of this pain. I'd rather be numb than feel it all like this. Better now, than next month when we hit the big '3'.

For all the times I've cared, it felt like it meant nothing. And when I momentarily cared less, you went crazy. And loved like you've never loved before. Sometimes I laugh at the games we human play.

The ball has always been in your court. Doing whatever you like, whenever you feel like it. Seems like things have not changed even until this very day.

I don't deny that you love me. I know you do. But maybe, just not enough.

Don't give me the 'I'll always care for you as a friend' shit. How many times have we heard such a thing, and you know that they don't mean jack shit. It's just a good line to make them look like less of a jerk. Anyway, I need a sincere friend, not an obligatory friend.

So let this very last tear roll by. For all the love I had for you. For all that we've went through. For all the pain that you've caused me. I'll let it be. And this, I hope, would be the very last I'll shed for you. How I wish I could walk in the rain now. So that no one would be able to see me in this state.

I've gotta learn how to be a big girl, and big girls don't cry.

For now, single I will be. But not for you. But because, I'm too sick of the games of love that we play. So here I am, saying goodbye for the last time.