I ask myself again and again. Why is the man in front of my eyes, so different from before? Did I just not notice all these before, or have I somehow created a monster?
3 years. I gave him 3 years of my time.
And even now, I still manage to gather more and more lies that he's told me this year during our roller-coaster ride.
It may be just miscellaneous stuff, but if he had to do so much over small matters, imagine what he could do during the bigger matters.
I keep telling myself it's over. I would say I know it will be over. But when will it really be over? I guess I'm the only one stopping myself from moving on. For good. But if you were me, and were put through all that I went, could you?
And at the end of the day, is the pain I'm reliving again and again, worth it?
2 comments:
lol..this is creeping me out..
why do we always get hurt on the same day.. i'm not doing so well either. i so desperately, need a shoulder to cry on, but when i think about finding someone to lean on, the only person i can think of is joe. it's so ironic...
Well hun, you should still find another one to rely on, besides him. Like me, when I lost my boy, it was like losing one of my best friend as well.
And yes, text me when you're feeling shit again, okay? Muahhhh.
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