I do not understand.

Friends drift apart right? It's not the best feeling in the world, but it's life. It happens, whether we like it or not. "Don't want to accept, also need to accept-lah."

You could make a fuss about it. But you have no right to make the person do anything about it, if they are not willing to, no? I don't think friends are obligated to explain everything. Of course if they do, it might ease the rocky friendship. And if they don't, just wake up and realise they are not worth being friends after all! It's already a huge warning sign on the 'importance level' of your friendship if you actually need to dig an explanation out of these people, right?

I'm not sure how I managed to get entangled in people's lives and drama. Nor do I want any, so please don't get me involved. Your issues, leave my name out of it.

I could have left it aside. But then, I already did. A couple of times.

Statements like:

1) I bragged about people offering to help me do something. BRAG, ok?
I'm not sure if you forgot, but it was you that asked if I still talked to X. I just said he sms me to ask me if my internet is fixed yet. But besides that, no. And i carried on the previous topic that I was talking about. How is that bragging?

2) Deciding to let it (our friendship) go because I, Elaine Ng Sze Yin, apparently have not changed. Hey, I did my best to be nice to you and accompanied you whenever I could. Whether you could tell or not, I was trying to be sincere all the way. You, on the other hand brought up so much drama behind my back, so I wonder who is the one that hasn't changed? Dating my ex while still talking to me daily wasn't enough during the first round?

And X must be a really great friend that whatever he's done so far still managed to get you to hope he will be close with you once again, while OUR friendship isn't.

I do not want to fight. That's why I brought nothing up before this. Tried to handle it the 'adult' way by swallowing my annoyance.

Now you want to push my patience further by accusing that someone was obviously 'too busy getting very much acquainted with the one person that i have repeatedly told u that annoys the hell out of me.'

Where did you go wrong?

1) If I annoy the hell out of you, why on Earth would you still text and msn me DAILY (before I found out what you did)?! It's not like I forced you at gunpoint to talk to me daily. I had rather you told me the truth about how you felt. If you get pissed about people lying to you, why do the same and put on an act in front of me and pretend nothing is wrong??

2) Whether you like me or not, that's between us. It doesn't involve anyone else. Did you like it when you got stuck in between two feuding friends before? So don't do the same and get someone to stop hanging out with me despite how much you despise me. Esp when they don't have any problems with me or my attitude. They can make decisions for themselves.

Shu & Angeline hardly meet up with each other due to their busy working lives. But of course, they try to make it a point to come out when I'm back as I am not around all the time. So during my short holidays, I'm temporarily the VIP in their lives. Some of my other close friends would do the same, if they could.

COME ON, THERE'S NOTHING GOING ON.

I come back for holidays, friends try to fork out time to see me for awhile also is a problem, is it?! My GOD. Not like we met everyday or something and it WAS a fact that X has been busy. And I don't think X owes you any explanation as a friend in situations like this, right?! Girlfriend, yes. But, friend? Sad to burst your bubble, the answer is no.

And once I post up pictures, all this drama started. Must I block the whole lot of mutual friends before I post anything up? I only need X's permission which was obviously granted before I posted them up. He might have asked me to just ignore this whole situation once again but he wouldn't stop me from saying anything as he doesn't force people to do anything they don't want to. And it's my blog. (And also, he's just a friend. He has no right to.)

I know he didn't handle things wisely before, but I'm sure the words 'just move on la' was clear enough to explain what's going on. The fact is you can't accept the clear truth even when it's hanging right in front of your eyes. I know it's normal to be in denial because I've gone through such 'empty hopes' stages before. But now, blaming back the whole issue on him lying etc isn't going to help. You're just digging your old wound and grave (of what's left of your friendship) deeper than it already is.

It's not easy to accept such cold facts but either way, you still need to deal with it - whether you like it or not. And again, I would much appreciate it if you leave me out of your gossips either way because whatever happened between you guys has nothing got to do with me.

Anyway, you don't have the right to accuse X of being cruel and heartless. What do you know about it? What you did to me wasn't cruel before? And obviously to show no guilt and sorrow for what you have done in front of X - making it look like I've asked for it all the way.

X left you feeling dejected as you have done nothing? Then englighten me. What did I do to deserve such treatment from you?

I wonder why am I still trying to talk some sense into you to see things a little differently. You obviously never think about the situation from other people's shoes but your very own.

Don't take this as a huge attack as it is not. It's for you to know what I've thought about the situation when you think that I'm aware of nothing all this while. If I wanted to strike a personal attack on you, I would have done this a different way.